Fuh-getta-bout-it?

I live in a place far to often where I focus WAY to much on the "what if's", the "woulda,shoulda,coulda's",and the "if only's". It is a miserable place to reside for any time at all. But it's a place i know all to well. There's a lengthy list in my head of "Mike's missed opportunities" or there's the "You Can't so why even try?" list, or my personal favorite (kidding) "You're really average fatty, so let's not get crazy here". You get what I'm saying and I'm just being real. The impostor has a grip on me that I'm trying to break, the 120project is part of that process.

It's abundantly clear that I need to give parts of my past a big middle finger,but I don't think I should just "fugettaboutit". It did happen,right? and there's a lot I can learn from it. My problem is I dwell in it and live in it. I am learning to let it push me forward and it gives me a reference point in certain ways. I guess it should be like my rear view mirror in my car, I catch a quick glance of what's behind me, but if I looked at it the whole time I'd never see what's in front of me right now or around the next "curve". I guess that's why the windshield is bigger than the rear view! Eureka!

Learn from the past, plan for the future, LIVE in the present. This "equation" brings me hope.

Hope is defined as - A confident expectation.

My Real Hope rests in Christ. Though I may struggle to live in that hope, I have a confident expectation that my future has been shaped and molded by him and that I can cling to that daily, especially in looking ahead to were I want to be in 13 mos., not only a true "Trophy Husband" but be that person I see in my head waiting to break free.

I found this quote a friends facebook page today:....word!

"Our yesterdays hold broken and irreversible things for us. It is true that we have lost opportunities that will never return, but God can transform this destructive anxiety into a constructive thoughtfulness for the future. Let the past rest, but let it rest in the sweet embrace of Christ.
Leave the broken, irreversible past in His hands, and step out into the invincible future with Him."
-Oswald Chambers

Workout:
8 deadlifts
8 Hang cleans
8 thrusters
8 pushups
x 6 + 1hr of cardio

food log:

B-4egg omlet, 1 piece wheat toast, black coffee
L- Turkey Bean Salad, Unsweet Tea
Snack- chicken,apple, almond mix w/spicy mustard
D- Chicken thighs and collard greens! left over no added stuff. Water
Snack-1 greek yogurt, 1cup mixed berry smoothie.

i'm spent! rock out tomorrow!